There are no ifs in life. If you have it, please cherish it!

[Confessor] Miss Yinglan is twenty-four years old and her thoughts are always with her.

Zhan Hui and I are college classmates, and we have been in love for a long time, but the time to pierce the window paper is approaching. Although graduation and love came a little late, luckily we didn't miss it.

We have our own plans for the future. In order to be together and to have a better life in the future, we are preparing to take the postgraduate entrance examination at the same university. But unfortunately, we all failed. When the results came out, it was a little late to find a job. Fortunately, my parents had already made arrangements and found me a relatively stable job in my hometown.

I hope Zhan Hui can go to my hometown with me to develop, but he insists on staying in Zhengzhou, saying there are many opportunities here.

We argued about this, but later I compromised. He promised me that if I gave him three years, if his career still failed to improve, he would go to my hometown to develop and work with me again. Not separated either. I always remember this promise. It is his goal and my source of strength.

Long-distance love is sweet and bitter, and longing is always with you. When I am busy, I will think about what he is doing at the moment, and when I am leisurely, I will wonder if he is also thinking about me. We can't be together, so I can only comfort myself by thinking about the sentence "If our love lasts for a long time, how can we stay together day and night".

Whenever we have free time, Zhan Hui and I will talk on the phone, send text messages, or chat endlessly on QQ. We always forget the time when we miss each other and our respective lives. No matter how busy we are at work, we try to meet once a month, either he comes or I go.

Zhan Hui and I love and persevere so persistently. However, my parents were very dissatisfied with our relationship. Although they never forced me, they tried to persuade me to break up with Zhan Hui every time they had the chance. During that time, I was under a lot of pressure and felt irritable. Zhan Hui comforted me, saying that he wanted to see my parents and that he was confident to convince them to accept our relationship.

So on August 15th of that year, Zhan Hui came to my house carrying large and small packages of gifts. Although my parents objected to Zhan Hui and me being together, they did not shut Zhan Hui out categorically and were quite polite to him. They poured tea and fruits to greet Zhan Hui. Seeing that their atmosphere was quite harmonious, I breathed a sigh of relief and walked into the kitchen to prepare lunch with my mother.

I don’t know what Zhan Hui and my dad were talking about. I was busy in the kitchen when I heard a heavy "bang" of the door closing. When I hurried out of the kitchen, Zhan Hui was no longer in the living room. Of the figures, only my father looked displeased.

After that, my parents began to force me to break up with Zhan Hui, saying that it was not good for him and that it was wrong. In the past, I ignored what my parents said, but this time it was different. Maybe I listened, or maybe I was a little annoyed by Zhanhui. Before I came here, I promised that I would be able to convince my parents, but in the end, it made things worse.

Later, because I had a disagreement with Zhan Hui on the phone, I broke up with him, refused to respond to his calls and text messages, and even blacklisted him on QQ. It wasn't until he appeared in front of me haggardly a month later. Seeing his sad look, I softened my heart.

The rift got bigger and bigger

We reconciled again and started a long-distance relationship where we could only see each other once a month. Sometimes we were so busy that we could only see each other once every two or three months. . I told my parents that I broke up with Zhan Hui before, but we reconciled later and I didn't tell my parents. My parents were also worried that Zhan Hui and I would get together again, so they began to recruit all their connections to introduce me to someone.

Afraid that my parents would be suspicious, I didn’t dare to refuse the blind date outright, but I would occasionally go on a date. After Zhan Hui learned about it, he was very angry, and I was angry too, blaming him for not understanding me and not believing me.

There are more and more conflicts between us, and the rifts are getting bigger and bigger. We often have quarrels and cold wars over trivial matters, and then I make noises about breaking up. Zhan Hui loves me. After every trouble, he is the first to raise the white flag and surrender, apologize to me, and beg my forgiveness. We reconciled again, over and over again.

In April this year, we had a big quarrel about me going on a blind date. After that, I kept getting angry and ignoring Zhan Hui. He made countless phone calls and sent countless text messages, and I ignored him. Ignore it. He came to me, but I avoided seeing him. After a month of stalemate, there were obviously fewer calls and text messages from Zhan Hui. I felt a little uneasy, but I still refused to give in due to my stubborn temper, so I sent a breakup text message to Zhan Hui in anger. Zhan Hui's reply was very simple, with only one word: "Okay."

Just like that, Zhan Hui and I parted ways again. To be honest, after I broke up with Zhan Hui, I tried to date a boy, and we met on a blind date. The boy had good conditions and chased me very closely. I was in a bad mood because I had just broken up with Zhan Hui. Someone cared about me, so I didn't refuse.

But deep down, I know that I still can’t let go of Zhan Hui. When I'm with that boy, I can't help but compare him with Zhan Hui in my heart. The result of this just made me miss Zhan Hui even more. Unable to deceive myself any longer, I decided to let love take charge. When we were together in the past, Zhan Hui often said that he loved me without dignity, so let me have no dignity for once and let me work hard for my own happiness.

After I broke up with the boy, I dialed the familiar number. When I heard the familiar voice on the phone, my heart was pounding. I said, "Let's not make trouble anymore." Okay, okay?" I thought Zhan Hui would be as excited and happy as I was when he received my call, but unexpectedly, besides being a little surprised at first, his voice actually sounded a little hesitant, and his tone was strange, and he didn't say yes. It’s not bad either.

It wasn’t until a month later that I finally understood the reason. I heard the news that Zhan Hui was getting married from an old classmate on QQ.

The end is a foregone conclusion

Like a bolt from the blue, I was stunned. I didn’t believe it, because Zhan Hui once said that he only loved I am the only one, and he also said that even if we break up, he will see me happy before getting married again after I get married... But in the end, he broke his vow so easily.

I was so heartbroken that I couldn’t help but call Zhan Hui. I needed an explanation from him. In fact, I was just lucky because my classmates said that the girl looked a bit like me. I comforted myself. , Zhan Hui still loves me, he just regards that girl as my substitute, as long as he loves me, we still have a chance.

As a result, on the phone, Zhan Hui told me that we were destined to be together. I couldn't accept it and asked him, "Why? Don't you love me anymore?" Zhan Hui didn't answer. He only said that he would come to me in a few days and make it clear to me face to face.

After suffering in pain for 4 days, I finally got the chance to see Zhan Hui, who I had been thinking about day and night. We walked hand in hand on the road, but we all chose silence. No one wanted to bring up the topic. It seemed that we didn't say anything. We could still be like before, at least that's what I thought.

It wasn't until I checked into the hotel room that I asked Zhan Hui, "Don't you have anything to say to me?" There was still silence. After a long time, he raised his head and looked at me, and then He lowered his head and said in a low voice: "She is pregnant." I don't believe it, really? Love her? Why are you so quick... A series of questions, I lost my thoughts and stared blankly at Zhan Hui who never dared to raise his head to face me, tears bursting out of my eyes.

Zhan Hui told me that after that quarrel, I ignored him and even asked him to break up. Later, he heard that I had another boyfriend and gave up completely. His current girlfriend likes him very much, and his family is also very satisfied...but he didn't expect that a month ago I actually offered to reconcile with him, but at the same time, the girl found out that she was pregnant. Zhan Hui said that he must be responsible, so this is fate, destined, we are destined but not destined.

I couldn't listen anymore, so I picked up my bag and flew out the door, but was hugged tightly by Zhan Hui. He said that he was just afraid that I wouldn't be able to bear it or that I would do something stupid, so he wanted to tell me in person. I struggled hard and shouted at the top of my lungs: "I never want to see you again, let go of your hand."

Zhan Hui reluctantly let go of his hand, and I rushed out of the hotel, with him following closely. From behind, no matter how much I stimulated him or scolded him, he would not leave. I walked around like a wandering spirit, sitting and sitting. I really wanted to cry, but I forgot how to cry. I was so heartbroken that I couldn't breathe.

Zhan Hui followed me to the door of my house before leaving. Looking at his back as he turned and left, I really wanted to run over, hug him, and beg him not to leave, not to abandon me, but my feet felt like Once it has taken root, it cannot take a single step. I know, we're done.

Reporter’s Notes

At the end of the year, it’s time to look back on another year.

Yinglan said that she regretted it, "He told me before that no matter how much we quarreled, never break up. It was very hurtful, but I didn't listen. I didn't know how to cherish until I lost it, but everything There’s no way I can come back.”

If life could be repeated, what would it be like? At the same intersection, would you choose the opposite direction? In fact, this is an unsolvable problem, because there are no ifs in life, because incompleteness is the normal state of life. There is a proverb in the West, don't cry over spilled milk. Although there are all kinds of regrets and mistakes in life, facing reality and accepting reality is probably a more pragmatic attitude towards life.

If there is no way back, forget it! Just remember, next time, when you have it, please cherish it.