What I have heard most in recent years is that the conditions should not be so high and get married as soon as possible. So, one sleepless night, I wrapped myself in a blanket, tossed and turned, anxiously thinking about what conditions I had. If I demand conditions from others, what conditions can I match with my qualifications? I remember, when people introduced me to my boyfriend in the past, they would first tell me how big a house he had, where he worked, how much his monthly salary was, and what his family conditions were like...

So, if my conditions are high, do I need him to have a big house and a lot of money? Furthermore, at least whether he has a house and his monthly salary will be a standard to measure a person. With standards, you will not be afraid of not being able to find a job. arrive. Even if we start from poverty with him, at least we won't end up in such an embarrassing situation. But, obviously, this is not my standard. Every time when a friend asks me, I say that as long as he has a stable job, whether he has a house or not, and what his monthly salary is, it doesn't matter. A friend asked, since you don’t care about your house, car, salary, or family conditions, there are a lot of people like you. If it were really such a person, would you be willing to talk to him? I am speechless, so what are my conditions? After thinking about it over and over, I told my friend that he may not be very rich, but he must be an interesting and motivated person who can get along with me. My friend said, what is interesting? Don't be unrealistic with your head full of romance. Aren't you just pursuing romance? Life is about living, how can there be so much romance. Obviously, my friend misunderstood what I meant. For me, it’s not just flowers, candlelight dinners, being able to take me around and giving me gifts that make me an interesting person. To be interesting means to be similar to me, to have at least mutually recognized values ​​and outlook on life, and not to be someone whose actions and words are boring to the point where I don't want to talk to him at all. Then, not so tactful, hypocritical and utilitarian. My friend said, is it okay for this society not to be utilitarian? Do you dare to say that you don’t want to live in a nice house, drive a nice car, and live a high-quality life? Yes, I think, just as I usually spend some money that I think is luxurious, go to a coffee shop just for a mood, just to experience the tranquility and beauty in life; I need a lot of money to Supports many of my hobbies and desires. However, I think people should always be more indifferent. If you look away from everything, you will inevitably be negative and even trapped; if you don't look away, you will inevitably be tired of it all day long. Life is only a hundred years old, a hundred years from now. Return to dust all your life. Money is something external to the body. I don’t want to live such a beautiful life and be bothered by these things every day, even for one day.

I am indifferent but not negative, so I work hard to make money. Work hard but not utilitarian! He should be like me, not hypocritical or kitsch, but a person who is thorough, knows how to treat life, and is considerate of others. Standing on the streets of this vast world, go there and find such a man! So is it okay not to find such a man? I am ruthless, like many people, looking for a house and a car based on quantitative standards, even if I start from scratch. At least it won't be to the point where she can't get married. But it seemed difficult~~ Then I thought, why can others find it according to such standards, but I can't? If I were a woman who was living in a difficult situation and eating one meal to be aware of the next, perhaps, as long as there was a man who could change my difficulty, I would get married. Unfortunately, the money I earn is not enough for me to eat. If I were a materialistic woman, then even if I didn't marry a so-called rich man, at least I would be with a man, and I would be able to live more happily than I would by myself. But, I am not. Although my life may seem ordinary or even simple to others. But I eat simple meals every day, wear cheap T-shirts, and walk in the sun. My heart is happy. Because, it’s not that I’m reluctant to eat better food and wear better clothes, it’s just because I like this kind of life. My heart is bright and happy just because of this simple thing. Then, we must find the person who knows the pronunciation of Gaoshanliushui dialect. But it’s really difficult. Convince yourself and get married. She is just an ordinary woman, but! I can't convince myself!

If I wake up alone on a night like this, I feel lonely. Confused, but at least there is still a little bit of hope in my heart. If I want to wake up in the arms of a man I don’t want, I’m afraid I will feel even more isolated and lonely, and then, there is despair!

However, I don’t want to be single, don’t want my parents to worry, and don’t want to wake up alone at night. Because I’m afraid, I sleep with the light on all night. And because I leave the light on, I can’t sleep well and wake up with a splitting headache every day. .

I am afraid of seeing the sweet smile of a newlywed woman. I am afraid of such a stormy night, when I have to go from the bedroom to the living room, from the bed to the sofa, and still cannot fall asleep after two hours of tossing.

I don’t want to be single. I’m afraid of hearing the phrase “The conditions shouldn’t be so high.” I’m afraid that in the eyes of others, I’m a woman who wants to fly up a branch and become a phoenix. Maybe it’s not because I’m afraid, but because I’m unwilling to be alone. After a person has endured the fatigue of life, he will be misunderstood as a woman who wants to get something for nothing!

How I want it! This world is stable; how I want it! I dreamed about waking up in the arms of the person I love at midnight, and my heart was full of happiness, joy and peace. But, it’s really difficult!

A person's life, except for the occasional loneliness, can be considered happy and satisfying. That is to say, I can convince my heart to be peaceful and stable in this state. But I can't convince my heart to feel happy and stable in the arms of a man I don't want.

I often say to my friends, no matter how unbearable and boring a woman marries to us, as long as she can justify her love and convince her heart to be happy in such love, then it is okay. OK But, I can't! Not because I don’t understand, but because I understand so well! Like wax frying itself, like silkworm binding itself!

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