The young and promising husband was assigned by the company to the Canadian headquarters for a one-year training. After returning, he will join the company's senior leadership. I am also a person with strong work ability, and I work in high-end office buildings with the title of business manager. I am very satisfied with all this and very hopeful about our future.

No matter how busy we are, my husband and I talk on the phone almost every day to tell each other how much we miss each other. But as time goes by, when a person stays in an empty house for a long time at night, I will feel inexplicably restless, and loneliness and emptiness suddenly invade my soul. I hate being alone more and more. I like to go to places with a lot of people. I am afraid of the turmoil that loneliness will bring to my heart. I am no longer satisfied with hearing my husband’s voice on the phone. I long to touch his skin and his warm embrace, but my husband on the other side of the ocean cannot give me these.

I tried to fill this emptiness with work, but it was no use. I couldn't suppress the eagerness in my heart. I began to think wildly, often thinking of the sweet days when I was with my husband, which made me even more intolerable to the loneliness I was currently experiencing. I even had the idea of ​​seeking a one-night stand. There were many courteous men around me, and their faces appeared before my eyes when I was feeling empty. But I am a woman with a decent job and a happy family. How could I do something that is despised by the world? Unfortunately, I ended up sinking and falling into a love game.

On Christmas Eve, I took my assistant Xiaofeng to Shenzhen to discuss business. The partner is a regular customer of mine, so our talks went smoothly and both parties were very satisfied. At that time, they happened to be holding a company-wide Christmas party. In order to celebrate the successful cooperation, they tried their best to invite us to the party. I was also thinking about how I would spend Christmas this year. In the past, my husband was by my side every year. If I went home this time, I would definitely be alone. Thinking of that lonely and empty home, I couldn't help but shudder. So Xiaofeng and I decided to postpone our return one day to attend this party. I dressed up a little that night, and as soon as I entered the venue, there were many people around me. As I like crowds and bustle, I was in a great mood and drank a lot of wine. By the end of the party, I was already a little half-drunk, but I still clearly remember that it was Xiaofeng who took me back to the hotel with "difficulty".

Xiaofeng has just joined the company. He is a hard-working and hard-working boy, and he cooperates well with me. His family is out of town, and I heard that his girlfriend is also in his hometown. I usually take good care of him, like a big sister. Maybe I was really drunk that night. When Xiaofeng walked me into the room and turned to leave, I kept holding his hand and refused to let go. I shouted not to let him go and asked him to stay with me. Obviously, Xiaofeng was frightened by his boss' drunken behavior and felt that I couldn't do it alone, so he decided to stay with me. I was reluctant to let go of his hand. I felt very at ease and eager to get a little warmth from him. It had been a long time since I had been in such close contact with a man, and I felt an inexplicable excitement in my heart. So I slowly started by touching his hand and kept moving it over his body. Driven by my enthusiasm, Xiaofeng, who had drunk a little wine, also became confused and infatuated. In this way, under the influence of alcohol, Xiaofeng and I had a relationship.

Afterwards, we both felt a little embarrassed. I was his immediate boss in the company, and in my eyes he was at best a half-grown child who had not yet grown up. I didn't expect that the one-night stand that I had thought about would happen, and it would be with Xiaofeng. I didn't say anything more, and even looked at him with a cold look, because I didn't want him to have too many thoughts. But Xiaofeng said very seriously and responsibly: "Don't worry, I will take good care of you, and I won't let you get hurt in any way." After hearing what he said, I burst out laughing. I didn't expect that he, who has always been honest, would also act carelessly. When I make a promise to a woman, no one understands my heart. What can Xiaofeng understand?

When I saw several missed calls from my husband, I felt uneasy and felt that I was sorry for him. But when I think of the long-lost passionate release last night, I feel a little fuller in my heart: I'm sorry, as long as my spirit doesn't betray you, there won't be a second time.

I thought everything would be business as usual when I came back, like nothing had happened. But the peaceful days were broken by Xiaofeng's cup of rose tea every morning. Every time there is a note pressed at the bottom of the cup, the few words on it are enough to make my ears tingle and my heart beat. I felt guilty towards Xiaofeng. After all, it was me who seduced him first in that situation. It was my empty and lonely soul that took the initiative and asked for the warmth of a man. I didn't expect that Xiaofeng would be obsessed with me. He would ask to accompany me wherever I went on business trips, and would give me meticulous care during the trip. He even told me that he had broken up with his girlfriend. He knew that there would be no results with me, but he was willing to be a lover. He just wanted to stay by my side and take care of me silently to fulfill his promise to me. I was touched, but more out of love. I always treated him like a younger brother, but I never thought that one of my passionate releases would bring such a heavy burden to him. I would rather the person accompanying me that night was unknown. Little A or Little B in the bar.

Facing Xiaofeng's infatuated care every day, I feel more irritable and restless than before. I can't look directly into those affectionate eyes calmly, but I can't escape. In fact, I really want to say to him, if you really don't want me to be hurt, please leave me. But I couldn't say it. I took the initiative from the beginning of the game. In this extramarital game, he was the real victim. I can't bear to fire him, but if I continue like this, sooner or later his infatuation will be known to the whole company, and my husband will also hear about it. If that day comes, what should I do?

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