The Broken Idol

Fang Fang: Female, 29 years old, marketing manager

This time last year, I was not in Beijing, but in my hometown in Hebei. The reason was to avoid my husband, because I had an "unclean" disease that I couldn't pass on to him, and I couldn't let him know about it. I happened to have a month's leave, so I took my daughter back to my hometown. Now that I think about that incident, I feel regretful. When I was in high school, I had a crush on a male classmate in my class. He was our monitor. He was also an all-rounder and could play the guitar. There are many girls pursuing him, but he seems to like no one. After graduating from high school, we both entered college and left each other's addresses, but we never exchanged a letter. It's strange that I often meet him in my dreams.

In May last year, the company asked me to go to Guangzhou to participate in an ordering meeting. What a coincidence, we met unexpectedly at the ordering meeting. Old classmates who had been separated for ten years naturally felt very close to each other when they met. We were busy chatting that day and did not attend the morning meeting. After a five-day meeting, on the day it ended, after dinner, we were at the elevator, and he suddenly said: "If you stay for two more days, isn't this your first time here?" When he said this, for some reason, my heart He jumped up with a thump. I tried my best to calm myself down and said, "Maybe not. If you want to stay, you have to say hello to the company." "Call now!" He handed me the phone and added, "For the two days of stay, all expenses will be paid." I'll take care of it!" I decided to stay and chat with him for another two days. After the order fair was over, he took me to a temple near Guangzhou to eat various snacks. When we returned to the hotel in the evening, we all burst out laughing as we talked about our past high school days. I said, at that time you were Prince Charming in the eyes of us girls. Speaking of this, he stared at me and asked what now? I said now everyone has his or her own Prince Charming. He said, I only care about you. Have you found the prince charming in your heart? I suddenly fell silent. I don't know how to answer this question.

It would be untrue to say that I don’t love my husband; it would also be untrue to say that my husband is my ideal partner.

"Okay, let's not talk about this anymore." He changed the topic, "I will take you to take a hot spring bath. The hot spring bath here is very famous." In the bathhouse, he brought up the past again: "Remember, one time when you entered the classroom, you He was holding a copy of "The Life of Van Gogh" in his pocket, and I borrowed this book from the school library the next day." He suddenly pushed my hair away from my face and said, "You know, I liked you then. ..." Later he pulled me into his arms and kissed me. After getting out of the bath, I followed him back to the room in a daze, and I won't say what happened next.

When I woke up the next day, I seemed much more awake. When he still wanted to be intimate with me, I said, why didn't you tell me earlier? If you had said you loved me earlier, my history would not be written like this. I tested him again and said that I had wanted to divorce my lover for a long time... Before I finished speaking, he suddenly panicked, sat up immediately, and said, don't be so impulsive. You are in Beijing, I am in Shenzhen, you still have children, and there are many specific problems. As soon as he said this, I knew his hypocrisy. It turned out that we played a game of deceiving ourselves. Wouldn't that be great? He advised me. I said that I didn’t want to be someone else’s lover (but I was telling myself in my heart that I’m afraid we don’t even have the reality of being lovers). Later, I insisted on buying a flight back to Beijing that night.

Not long after I came back, I felt something was wrong with my body. When I went to the hospital for a check-up, the doctor said, let your spouse come for a check-up too. This disease requires two people to treat it together. It goes without saying that I have the kind of disease that is often plastered on telephone poles or advertised in the streets. I immediately thought of him. I called his cell phone and asked him if there was anything wrong with his body. He didn't seem to understand what I meant. I told him that since returning from Guangzhou, I have suffered from "that disease". Before I finished speaking, he interrupted me with a rough voice and said: "If you want money, just say so. Please don't blackmail me in this way. You are insulting my character by doing this..." …”

I have never had this disease. The physical injury is secondary. What saddens me the most is that the idol I had for many years was shattered. God gave him a desirable appearance, intelligence and talent, but also gave him a mean and wretched heart. heart of. Time is a sharp file. In the face of time, anyone will be changed, whether their appearance, your will, your character, or your dreams. I began to feel that things were changing and life was too unpredictable.

An eternal confession

Su Jun: Male, 35 years old, American editor

My wife and I were college classmates, and we both stayed in Beijing after graduation. From 1992 to 1993, we spent two years traveling around the country by bicycle at our own expense. During this period, we experienced many risks, took many photos, and made a lot of written records. Our relationship is tempered. At that time, many newspapers and periodicals reported on our deeds.

After passing the test of the valley of death, we divorced in 1995, a year of calm. None of our colleagues, friends or classmates know the reason for our divorce. Now that it has been so many years, it is okay to say it. If you think it is a lesson, just learn it.

In June 1995, my pager suddenly received a call sign that was unfamiliar to me. When I inquired about it, I found out that she was a female author from Northeast China. She mentioned that she was on a business trip to Beijing and hoped to meet her.

I had met her once. In 1993, when we were on an adventure in Northeast China by bicycle, she said she wanted to interview us. At that time, many friends from the media, including my wife, were present. But we left the city the next day. We barely exchanged a word in private and never contacted each other again. I just remember that she was tall, had a good figure, and had nice edges on her face. The men that day were all vying to have fun with her. Two years later, there are still beautiful women thinking about us, which is also a blessing for men. I invited her to a barbecue restaurant to eat Mongolian barbecue. We ate from 6 pm to 9 pm. She had no intention of breaking up and said, "Where is the bar in Beijing?" So we went to Sanlitun Bar again.

By the dim light, she confided her thoughts to me. She found out that her husband was with another woman and had cheated on her a lot. She was very disappointed and in pain because they had been in love for many years. For her husband, she cut off all contact with her boyfriend, but a man would never be willing to live with a woman. Her husband's affair made her feel very bad, so she went out to relax and find someone to chat with.

My wife was not at home during that time, she was pregnant, and she was waiting to give birth at her parents' house. I chatted with her until after one o'clock late at night. I saw that it was too late, so I asked her where she lived, and I sent her back. She waved her hand and said you should go back first while I sit there until closing time. I thought, what's wrong with this? If she was fine, I could leave her alone. She was in a bad mood, and you said you would leave her here... So I said, why don't you go to my house? If you want to talk, we can go home. chat.

Of course, when I say this, I do not rule out the bad qualities in men. She looked at me, half-squinted her eyes, and said, "Aren't you afraid that your wife will fight with you?" I pretend to be relaxed: now I am the head of the family. She got into a taxi with me. In the car, we stopped talking and seemed to be thinking about what was going to happen. After returning home and closing the door, it is self-evident what will happen to a woman who is emotionally confused and a man who is sexually hungry because his wife is pregnant.

We were all in a state of madness that night, and she seemed to be venting her anger to a man, using her body to express her anger.

As our bodies calmed down, she began to sob.

Because we were so tired, we fell asleep early in the morning and were so deep in sleep that we didn't even hear the phone ring. Then I heard the door open. My brother-in-law came to pick up something. My wife had given birth to a baby.

What my brother-in-law saw became the irreversible fact that my wife divorced me three months later. My wife would never tolerate her husband not only not being with her when she was having a difficult delivery, but actually fooling around in bed with a woman.

The female author did not call me after she returned to Northeast China. I know that everything we do is outside the spirit. It is impossible for her to fall in love with me, and I have no deeper understanding of her. What we are looking for is only physical love between a man and a woman, a physiological love. It was just a pleasure; or for her, there was also a layer of pleasure in taking revenge on her husband. But in this little game, God gave me such a severe punishment: I lost my wife and children for a woman who had nothing to do with me. I admit it. Those who play with fire will burn themselves.

A black ghost

Gu Xiang: Male, 30 years old, occupation not disclosed

In 1998, I went to Vietnam for work and spent some time in the Gulf of Tonkin in Vietnam. One day, I met a Vietnamese girl while swimming at the beach. She spoke Chinese very well. She said that she had a brother who worked at the Vietnamese Embassy in China and brought back many Chinese gifts every year. She especially liked Chinese traditional paintings. and embroidery. She is currently studying at the Institute of Foreign Languages ​​in Vietnam. She hopes to have the opportunity to visit Beijing and Suzhou and Hangzhou in China in the future. The ideal thing is to find a Chinese husband. She hoped that I would introduce more Chinese culture to her, and her fluent Chinese and her yearning for China made me feel that I had a confidante in a foreign country.

Later, we often met at the beach. I introduced Chinese culture to her, and she told me about Vietnamese customs. That night, we played on the beach until late. She was lying next to me and suddenly asked: Brother Gu, can you marry me? Before I could reply, she asked again, "Am I not as beautiful as your Chinese girls?" She was wearing a swimsuit, and her beautiful body showed a jade-like luster in the moonlight. I think Vietnamese girls are so pure and beautiful. If they like a man, they will directly propose to him, but Chinese girls always make the man exhausted and dizzy before accepting your love. My girlfriend is like that.

But no matter how good the Vietnamese girl in front of you is and how much you like her, you can't take her back to the country - although love knows no borders. However, I am a man, and it is impossible for my will and body to ignore the courtship and temptation emanating from this girl to me. When her body was close to mine, I could no longer control myself... We spent an ecstatic night surrounded by the kiss of the sea breeze and the gentle whisper of the waves. The next day, when we were awakened by the salty sea breeze, we found a huge conch squatting on the edge of the reef. I caught the squatting conch and told her in implicit and affectionate language: Our friendship is... I can testify that you take it back. When you see it, you will be reminded of a Chinese love brother... The Vietnamese girl turned the conch over gracefully, using a lens that I am familiar with in movies or TV. : A finger gently slid across my face, and she said coquettishly, "The Vietnamese sister doesn't want this, it's all over the beach; the Vietnamese sister likes this in the pocket of the Chinese love brother..." As she said that, she smiled and took a look at my face. He took out a RMB note from his coat pocket.

It seemed that she had caught me committing a thief, and my face suddenly turned red. I pretended to be relaxed and said, money is a good thing, take it if you like it. She stretched out her five fingers, still smiling, and said, "Please ask the eldest brother to pay 2,400 yuan." It was exactly 12 hours from 6pm yesterday to 6am today. According to the rules, the hourly service fee is converted into RMB 200. It doesn’t matter if you don’t have so much money with you. I can go to the campground with you to get it. I know where you live...

For that night, I not only paid more than half a month's salary, but was also given a verbal warning by my employer because we have an internal foreign affairs discipline that stipulates that no individual is allowed to stay outside without permission. What's more important is that my sincere love was stabbed by the Vietnamese "lady" as a "guest".