I met Han Feng on a forum. At the end of last year, I bought a car. I was so excited that I naturally joined this car forum. Han Feng is very active and enthusiastic in his speech. He will reply to all the "technical" questions one by one and give patient guidance. Slowly, we deepened our understanding through text messages and QQ on the site. Through talking about cars, we also talked about family, children and some secret emotional issues.

The advantage of joining such a semi-professional forum is that everyone is familiar with and aware of the same hobbies, and maybe one day they will attend a car meet. During the event, some people will come to you from the background and become real friends in life; while some people will always exist in your life with virtual IDs. Han Feng belonged to the latter, so he was willing to confide some of his troubles to me. He said: Because you don't know me, I trust you.

1. When I am alone at night, I often feel that I am at a loss and have wasted a good time.

My wife discovered my affair at the beginning of this year, and my image in her mind plummeted. Thinking of this, my heart aches. I never thought I would reach this point. Apart from being frustrated, I also feel a sense of pleasure similar to revenge. But, who will take revenge? My wife is a good wife. She is never wrong. I am the only one who makes mistakes.

Until now, I don’t think I am a playful person. My wife and I are college classmates and have been married for 15 years. I have a good public job and several properties that I have invested in. I owned a private car and several properties five years ago. My life is considered moderately prosperous. Although it is not a successful career, it is still reasonable. I don’t have any bad habits. I don’t smoke or gamble. I usually like to exercise, listen to music, drink tea, and occasionally drink with friends. I can basically control myself from drinking too much.

My wife is a very capable woman at work. Although she does not make as much money as me, she is still very good. Apart from work, she has few friends and no communication among women. When she returns home, she sometimes still thinks about work. To be honest, I don't like her working. I hope she can take care of the house and take care of the children, as long as I am outside. But she is determined not to stay at home or manage the housework. She likes to be immersed in the sense of accomplishment at work.

In the past 15 years, my wife and I have had a good relationship. The only drawback is that my wife is very passive in our marital life and often keeps me awake at night. Especially after having a child, my wife moved to a small room and slept in the same bed with the child on the pretext of taking care of the child. She was often not with me for a month or two. She always said she was tired and not in the mood.

I am a person who cares about face and will never force things, but she doesn’t feel guilty at all about this. I wanted to take her to see a doctor, but she always had excuses to put it off. Even if she went, she wouldn't take her medicine on time. She always said she was born with a problem in that area. When I was in my prime and alone at night, I often felt that I was short-changed and wasted a good time. I also thought about divorce, but I would be pitiful when she left her and I couldn't bear it. Sometimes, I would secretly cry in sadness alone. For many years, I suffered in this state.

Perhaps it was in this state of mind that I began to uncontrollably cheat again and again. I feel that my wife does not cherish me enough. I want her to know that there are many girls chasing me, which will give her a sense of crisis and make her care about me and pay attention to me.

2. I woke up in a daze and found that she had woken up and was looking at me with her eyes wide open.

The first time I had an affair was 6 years ago. At that time, I started a new company, which was very different from my previous business, and I put a lot of energy into it. During this period, I became very close to a female employee. She was 26 years old at the time and had been married for less than a year. She was very beautiful, smart and capable, and she was the kind of woman I like.

She was very dedicated to her work and had good business skills. My financial conditions at that time were not comparable to those now, and I didn’t even have a car. To be honest, I admired her very much and was very grateful to her. We often discuss work together, and occasionally talk about things unrelated to work. She knows that she is very dissatisfied with her husband. Her husband works in a company and does not seek advancement. After getting married, he plays games online all day long. At that time, I reminded myself to use caution to avoid trouble. It can be seen that she respects me very much, and even worships me a little. She thinks that I am dedicated to my work, proficient in my business, and I am constantly learning.

Some things seem to be God’s will. During that time, my relationship with my wife was very tense. I happened to be on a business trip out of town to attend a dealer meeting. At this time, there was a very important training that conflicted with my time. I had to let her attend, so we took the same train.

We fell asleep not long after getting in the car. We were both on the bottom bunk, facing each other. I found that she was even more charming after lying down. After a night of silence, I woke up in a daze the next day and found that she had woken up and was looking at me with her eyes wide open. When she noticed that I opened my eyes, she smiled sweetly at me, a little shyly, and told me that her arm was numb and her hand hurt. I stretched out my hand, and she stretched out her hand and put it on mine. My heart was beating very fast, as if I was electrocuted. This is my first ambiguous contact with the opposite sex in nearly 10 years of marriage.

After finishing the work that day, we stayed in the same hotel, with two rooms of course. After dinner, I went back to my room and chatted very late. On that night and in that mood, some things happened naturally. She was my girlfriend for 6 months, and finally we had to break up. We were very sensible when we broke up, knowing that nothing would come of it in the future. We are still dating and have become close friends. We often greet each other and encourage each other. From the time we decided that we were no longer lovers to now, we have never had any contact beyond being friends.

3. After several separate dates, we became lovers.

I met Linlin at a party with my friends in 2002. During the conversation, we learned that we graduated from the same university, but she was 7 grades later than me. She works in a foreign company as a department manager. She was very cute, a skinny beauty, with big eyes, shoulder-length hair, and slightly dark skin. She didn't take it seriously, saying that she had a healthy complexion.

Our real relationship began in the spring of 2003. Her company was upgrading its network system and asked me to help them make plans. Although the project is not big, less than 500,000 yuan, according to common sense I have to express myself. I asked my subordinates to send her 5,000 yuan, and she quickly sent it back to me the next day.

She said that she accepted it from her heart, and you don’t earn much. Is our relationship worth 5,000 yuan? I was very embarrassed by what she said, so I invited her to eat Western food. We kept in touch a lot from then on, and I knew she had a brief marriage history. She didn't want to mention it, so I didn't ask any more questions. After several separate dates, we became lovers. Her financial situation is very good, she is independent and has her own house. She never asks much about me, and she never said she would marry me. Her relationship is tepid. Soon after, she got a new boyfriend, and our relationship naturally regressed to the stage of friends.

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4. Who would have thought that there are so many secrets behind such a man?

My wife did not know about my two cheatings. On the surface, I am still a good husband and a good father. We are a loving couple. And I just feel that I have received comfort from other women that my wife cannot give me. I still love this family. I work hard for our small family and work hard to make money so that my wife and son can live. Be rich and content.

My wife usually buys clothes in Lufthansa and Dorset. Traveling to Hong Kong and Europe, which other families have to grit their teeth to do, is a piece of cake for my wife and son. It is the responsibility of a good man to prevent his wife and children from having to worry about their livelihood. The gift of money makes me feel less guilty about my wife.

The girl I met for the third time is the one who is causing trouble to my family now. In fact, she and I haven't cheated on each other yet, I can only say that our relationship is a bit ambiguous. She is a new employee in our company. She just graduated from college last year. She is average-looking, but has a very aggressive personality and a good drinker.

At the beginning of this year, I took her with me to invite guests to drink, and we both drank too much. I drove her to her dormitory while drunk, but she didn't trust me, so she insisted on accompanying me to the downstairs of my house and then took a taxi back. I didn't try to convince her, so I drove to the downstairs of my house. The weather was still very cold at the end of February. When we went downstairs to my house, we chatted for a while. She said it was very cold, so I opened my arms under the influence of wine, and she leaned into my arms. Later, in a daze, we fell asleep. After a while, I woke up from the cold and found that she was still asleep, so I woke her up and took her home.

When I got home, I realized as soon as I entered the house that it was broken and my wife was crying. It turned out that my wife saw my car parked for a long time from upstairs and no one came out, so she went downstairs with her son to see me. As a result, she saw me sleeping with my arms around the girl. Her son locked the door and walked behind. She was afraid that he would see her, so she immediately turned back and said that I was not in the car. She lied that she had received a text message from me and said that someone else had sent the car back because I had drunk too much. My son still doesn’t know what happened to us.

At present, apart from spending time with my son and working, I feel that there is no other happiness in life. In front of my wife, I felt very depressed, depressed, and even a little bit contemptuous of myself. Fortunately, my wife only saw the last scene and didn't know what happened before. Otherwise, she would not forgive me anyway. In the eyes of my friends and family, I am a capable and excellent man. Who would have thought that there are so many secrets behind such a man?

In life, I am a person who is not lacking in romance. I will carefully remember all our anniversaries and prepare them carefully. I will buy flowers, gifts, and even take the initiative to cook some delicious food. But my wife is very careless and rarely remembers my birthday. Whenever I am outside and my friends celebrate my birthday, I feel very sad. Women are supposed to be very sensitive, but she didn't know that something had happened to me over the years. I was actually not grateful that she trusted me, but frustrated that she ignored me so much.

5. How can marriage be perfect?

After my first affair, I didn’t dare to look into my wife’s eyes for a long time. I felt very guilty and dirty. But as time went by, I became numb and indulged. Now, although my wife has forgiven me, I feel that it was just a stopgap measure after weighing the pros and cons, and she is still very hurt inside. More than three months have passed, and we have been very sensitive to avoiding this matter. But the more carefully we avoid mentioning it, the deeper the guilt I feel and the more hopeless I feel in life.

To be honest, as a middle-aged man, I know what to do, and I am a capable person. Everyone will be more or less confused and confused in their love life. I just lack the opportunity to release my depressed mood. Human nature has its weaknesses. This weakness will always be exposed in some way and at some time in your life. The first step is too critical and cannot be easily

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